“In the night, Lord, I remember your name, that I may keep your law.” Psalm 119:55
These last couple of weeks I have been reading and studying through Nehemiah. Probably because I went through the teaching at Downline and I am suppose to be reteaching it to my Denise. (Busted) I think I should take this time to tell you a little about another member of the Memphis family. Momma D is her other name. She has walked closely with me through this fight for freedom with my ED, drug/alcohol addiction too, and she fights along side me (and others) through prayer. She often blows up my phone with scripture, and she’s always pointing me back to the One my eyes need to stay on. I am thankful for her love, and her support in my life. I am telling y’all, well whoever wants to know this, we can not do these things alone. And I am so happy God knows that, too. (He knows everything, duh) Ok, time is over but really Denise if you are reading this I promise teaching is coming!
If you know anything about Nehemiah it is that he rebuilt the wall in Jerusalem. That is all I knew too, but I have learned a lot more. There are a million names I can not pronounce, and I really hope if God blesses me with little people that I will not under any circumstance name them a weird name. I am not complaining though maybe they liked their names. Maybe it was cool back then I do not know really. I have also learned that they had to protect the wall. That people made fun and threatened Nehemiah for what he was called to do. Discouragement set in with the people, and fear crept through the doors. But even in all of that Nehemiah did not stop. My favorite part from the whole book is when they are all prepared to guard the wall. They are now armed with swords, some standing watch for the enemy, and others working to rebuild it. And then he tells the people to not be afraid of the enemy but to remember the Lord.
“After I looked things over, I stood up and said to the nobles, the officials and the rest of the people, “Don’t be afraid of them. Remember the Lord, who is great and awesome, and fight for your families, your sons and your daughters, your wives and your homes.” Nehemiah 4:14
That part hit me as I am in my own guarding. Not a real wall of course. Fear creeps in my life, there’s a real enemy lurking around, and discouragement is a real big one lately. But I find myself holding on to this..remember the Lord. Remember His faithfulness, His strength, His love. Remember all the times He has already come through. Remember when He made a way. I am guarding my heart, my recovery, my thoughts, and my walk with the Lord not giving Satan that foothold he wants. Believe me when I tell you I have not mastered it. I am not sure I ever will, but I am holding on to my sword, the word, and I am prepared to fight just like back in the day with the long name people. Nehemiah was broken over the wall being destroyed, and the dream to rebuild it became his life. He went from a cupbearer to the king to a really great leader. God is faithful, He is good, and He always comes through even if it is not always in my timing. So tonight, as I try to sleep, I will not be afraid of the enemy who seeks to destroy me. I will protect my “wall”, and I will not give up even in the discouragement or when it gets too hard. I will remember the Lord, and everything He has done for me.
“Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.” Proverbs 4:23
I hope if you walk away from this with anything it would be that God knows where you are. (He saw Nehemiah, too.) He will help you protect what is precious to Him. Your heart. Your recovery. Your thoughts. Your walk.. don’t you ever think you can not do this. No one fights alone. Join me in remembering what the Lord has done in your life. It is overwhelming!