Wilderness and blinkers and such

“All the ways of the LORD are loving and faithful toward those who keep the demands of his covenant.” ‭‭Psalm‬ ‭25:10‬ ‭

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to jump off of a cliff (attached to some sort of safety harness thing of course) way up in the air. Would that be fun? Or would I have a heart attack right there before the show even went on the road? I also question why I turn my blinker on indicating that I am turning in a turn only lane or why I turn it on when I am pulling in the driveway? Why do I turn my music down when I can not see? I have come up with some goofy questions today, and all I can do is laugh at myself. Out loud. Because honestly tears have overcome my laughter and my joy lately. Today, I just simply chose to laugh at the craziness that is my life at the moment. 

I was told that after a mountain top experience comes the wilderness. That seems to be right. I mean, look at the Israelites when God delivered them from the Egyptians. (Yes, after I was told that I read all about their time in the wilderness.) God delivered them in a big way you know parting the sea and allowing none of the Egyptians to make it out. They walked across on dry ground, and then praised Him for His deliverance. I think the song is by far my favorite in this story. “I will sing to the Lord, for He is highly exalted”, they sang, “The Lord is a warrior. The Lord is His name”. I loved how they worshipped and they praised God for the victory. But then things got hard, and all of a sudden they are wishing they were back in Egypt. May I say something? Of course, it is my blog we are on. I have been in Egypt for awhile now, so when I felt like I needed to study this wilderness stuff I hesitated big time. I did not want anyone visiting with me, it is better to do it alone, and I am fine are some of the lies I believed. I am thankful though that I have someone who is not afraid to get all up in my kool aid and ask the hard questions because she knows the truth is I am not fine. If you do not have someone like that I hope you find that person. The person who will walk through the wilderness with you, and love you right where you are in your struggle. My favorite thing I do have to say is she always points me back to the real kool aid invader. The One who is faithful even in the hard as well as the good. And who walks beside me in this whatever I am suppose to call it. 

“I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.” ‭‭Psalm‬ ‭91:2‬ ‭

I was reading in Psalm 25 today, and the first part of verse 10 got to me. It says, “All the ways of the Lord are loving and faithful”. This dark road/wilderness I am on right now feels far from loving, but all means all. All the ways of the Lord.. in the good and in the bad, in the dark and in the light. All. Every path I take. So, I am convinced that the darkness can not stay long and if it does I’ll need to purchase a flashlight. Either way, I am confident that I am not walking this alone and somewhere somehow today that gives me comfort. 


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