Today, I almost ran over a squirrel. Yes, I am the one you yell at for slowing down for them to cross the road. I also get very anxious when I have to pass by one sitting so close because I never know if it is going to be brave or smart in that situation. I know you know how I feel. Today also marks a year that I said yes to Jesus. That was a good day. It was very emotional, but it was such a beautiful day. This morning I was reading about Elijah not Elisha. Do you want to know the story? Ok, I’ll tell you. Grab a seat you might need it.
So, there was this prophet named Elijah. (I have a nephew by that name.) Anyway, one day he got this scary message from a crazy lady that pretty much said dude I am so going to kill you. After hearing that he did what anyone would do in that moment. He ran. For his life. He just took off down the road not even looking back, and finally he ends up under some random tree in the wilderness. He was so sad. It says in 1 Kings 19:4 that he prayed that he might die. “Take my life, God”, he says, “I can not do it anymore“. You been there? I know what that feels like. But of course God meets him in his sadness, and what does He do? He feeds him. I love that. It reminds me of when I use to go to my Grammaws house and she would make sure I ate all of my food and half of hers. You never left hungry that is for sure. God made sure he was not hungry and strong enough to travel for forty days. No, do not worry he was not going to Ohio he was going to the mountain of God. Also known as Mount Sinai.
“Be still, and know that I am God! I will be honored by every nation. I will be honored throughout the world.”
It was there he would meet with God. So, here comes a mighty wind, earthquake, and a fire but God was not in any of that. He was in what followed next..a gentle whisper. And when he heard it, he listened. And he began to tell God what was up. “I have served the Lord, and the people of Israel have lost it. They have all gone bananas! They have killed all of your prophets and I am the only one left. And now they are trying to kill me too.” God was like um…but you are not. Go anoint these people and go find Elisha. So, he did. The end.
“Yours, O Lord, is the greatness, the power, the glory, the victory, and the majesty. Everything in the heavens and on earth is yours, O Lord, and this is your kingdom. We adore you as the one who is over all things.”
1 Chronicles 29:11
I am not all the way sure why I just shared that story, but maybe just to tell you that I am thankful for that gentle whisper. The one that called me a year ago. He was not loud. He did not yell at me. He gently called me to Himself. And I answered the call. The days to follow I began to see the beauty in the world. My eyes were opened, and I no longer looked down at the ground which was sometimes scary because I would trip over things. Just sayin. I noticed the clouds, the sunsets, the birds singing, and the blue sky. It is beautiful is it not? It is so true when it is said that I once was blind but now I see. ❤ I have to continue to listen to that whisper and to be still and to rest in Him. I found something in my journal I wrote the night I gave my life to Christ. It’s a letter to me from Him.
June 19, 2016
Stay. Breathe. Rest.
Stay here with me please do not go. Breathe it all in nice and slow. Breathe in my spirit and out your fear. Rest now. You have been on the run for so long it is time you put it all aside and rest. Rest in me and do not forget to breathe. Will you stay awhile? I am here. When you sleep or when you are wide awake. I’m here for however long you need me. All night? Ok. 10 minutes? Ok. Just please stay. Always?
I’m not going anywhere. I promise. So…
Stay. Breathe. Rest.
I believe tonight that He longs for that relationship. The time spent with Him in His presence. I long for that too. Thank you for letting me share my heart even if I do stop for squirrels. Rest now.