“Open my eyes to see the wonderful truths in your instructions.” Psalm 119:18
I was asked a question today that was very hard for me to answer. What do you know that is true about God right now? It was even harder to answer because I had to know that it was 100% true. I know. Tell me about it. On the way home after my visit, I turned on the music refusing to sing. It didn’t matter whether I opened my mouth or not the words still found their way to my heart. Before I knew it the tears were flowing and I was telling God what I knew to be true. Yes 100% true. Here is my list and no.. before you freak out on me I did not make this while driving.
- He is good
- He wants to love me
- He is here close
- I am His child
- He is a promise keeper
- He is a good friend
Why do I walk around defeated? Why do I believe lies? Why do I doubt? The enemy knows it is the only way he can get me, and I let him. Just because my God is not coming through when I need Him to does not mean He is not going to. He is. He will. He is working in my mess. True. That is true. I will not give up on that. Needless to say, the car ride home was a very eye opening one. Sometimes God shows up in the craziest ways for me, and I am thankful for that tonight!
I was greeted when I made it home by a little rugrat reminding me that I promised a date. Little kids never forget these things by the way just for the future. So, now I am settled in watching lovely Mickey Mouse with my favorite little girl who argues with me about how we sleep in the morning. I will never win this argument I have decided.
It is all I hear. That’s ok I have come to accept these things in my life. Besides, I just recently learned that Goofy is a dog. (He is so tall.) My whole life changed on that one. I know I am chasing those rabbits, so I will get back to why I came here. I promise it was not to catch you up on the latest Mickey Mouse clubhouse. I think simply it is just to tell you I believe that He fights for me. For us. And I do not mean fights like He has not already won, because He has. I just mean in my doubts He meets me there, and He changes my percentages. In my questions He still shows His love. In my darkness He still shines light on things. Do I deserve that? I do not. But I am very thankful He thinks differently. So, saying all of that I am going to turn my music on and sing. Yes, I will. (Well, after this episode) And then I will call my best friend.
“A friend is always loyal, and a brother is born to help in time of need.”
Speaking of best friend- I will tell you about her. Her name is Jamie Lynn. She answers to many names, though. James, JL, Marge, Pam you know just normal ones. I am convinced God made her just for me, because He knew no one would be as weird as us. She is my biggest fan just ask her she will tell you. And she birthed the cutest little boy that I happen to love so much. We are not your average friends, but the love we have for each other is the best of the best. We are like David and Jonathan in the bible except no one dies and neither of our fathers are trying to kill us. Ok, bad example. Anyway, She has been by my side through this whole thing, and she is the funniest person I know! She tells me I am strong, but I think the same of her. She is the best mom, and she juggles being a mom and dad while her husband is away at work. Now, that is brave! You know what else? It completely sucks to be away from her, but I also know it to be true that God is working in that as well. She is my gold. I could write a whole post, but I’ll refrain. Mainly because it is after nine on a Tuesday.
I do not know if tomorrow will be better, but I will wake up to find out. Even if it is not, then I will still find the truth. The 100% truth. Ok, that is all I got. Now, I will go sing hot dog, hot dog, hot diggity dog and possibly dance. Don’t judge.